Confusion

Have you ever had a feeling you just can't shake? Like a week ago I thought I was happy with the way my life is going but now I can't help but feel completely empty. It's not that broken hearted, can't eat, can't sleep kind of emptiness... Just discontent with no knowledge of how to change it.
As always, I thought I had everything planned out; it was all straight in my mind. I mean who wouldn't want to be completely unattached to anything in their life, no true obligations other than working four days a week... but that's obviously not how I was built to function. I can't keep going on unattached to the things in my life. I'm not by any means unhappy, just fed up with the numbness that has become my only emotion.
I feel like I'm sitting here watching my life pass me by. Or maybe it was better put by my friend who said "it's like watching the world without my contacts." It's like I can see everything happening but it's in a big blur, nothing is solid or clear. I want more than this, and I'm not sure what that entails. I'm at this point where I want to cut ties with all of the dead ends that I continue to run into and just want to turn around and find a street that will actually lead me to something better. I miss being genuinely happy and actually smiling with purpose rather than just to make people happy.
I look back at the pictures from this past summer and see that I can be genuinely happy. Now I just need to find a way back to it.
... I don't have a plan but I do believe that you shouldn't complain unless you have a way to make things better. I will do SOMETHING about this... but I have no idea what. I guess I just need to be patient and wait to find out what's in store for me.
I just wish I wasn't so impatient for change.