Control, one word that has been chained to women by the men in there lives for centuries. Since the Ancient Agrarian times women have been belittled and seen as the weaker sex. Which to me makes absolutely no sense since we are the ones who endure men's stupidity and child birth. I, of course, can say I have been, and maybe still am one of those women controlled by a man. Even when I thought I had cut the chains after I forced him out of my life I only just found out that he had only loosened those chains.
But then you can say "well at least you notice it, that's the first step." But the funny part is I noticed it three years ago and still stayed loyal. I broke up with him and still he has this obscene control over my emotions that only he and my male family members have ever been able to bring out in me. So my question is... When is it time to take the next step? How do I get out of the shackles that have been so tightly fitted around my wrists and ankles?
Since the break up I have found the things I deserve and I have raised the bar as far as my standards are concerned. I can honestly say I have no feelings for the jackass whatsoever... But every time I hear that condescending voice I snap... I lose my cool and am overcome by anxiety and anger.
I'm smart, I'm funny, and I'm not unbearable in the looks department. I'm strong and independent and I absolutely LOVE my life. There is no explanation as to why I get to frustrated when he calls... The intelligent task would be don't pick up but overly nice me always does.
I know I'm not the only one in this situation, I actually just read a book about women who are in the same positions as me. I can honestly say it may have changed my life. I won't be listening to him anymore, I won't be waiting for any man to call, I won't do anything I don't want to do. I will get what I deserve and I am ready to find it. I'm done with the emotional abuse and the tears. I'm happy and plan only to get happier. Here's my next step... The shackles, oh honey, they're gone... FOR GOOD
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